Asian Junkie Asian pop. Without discretion.
One of my favorite targets on Asian Junkie are the mentally unstable, delusional teenagers that make me fear for the future of humanity, so I found this question that turned the spotlight around on me to be interesting.
Would you say that at one point in your life you might have been a crazy fan? If yes, how did you get back to reality? If not, what did you do to stay sane?
I’ll be the first to admit that I did a lot of illogical and irrational shit when I was a tween/teenager. Everybody does, right? I did lots of stuff that current me would likely mock and what not, but a psychotically dedicated fan? I can’t say that was ever in my blood.
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I guess I’ve always been a bit purposely detached from celebrities. Mainly because … well … I don’t REALLY know them.
Yeah, I like them because they’re attractive. Yes, I become fans of them because of their persona or whatever, but it’s all about keeping shit in perspective and being logical/rational.
As far as staying sane … uh … get out in the world? I’m thinking it helps just realizing that there’s a ton more out there than just idols … or whatever you may become irrationally attached to. Personally, I was more preoccupied with chasing girls in real life than fantasizing about celebrities, so that’s why I never fell into that creepy fanboy mode. Dunno, when there’s multiple things going on in your life, I think it’s hard to get so far gone into delusion that you reach the stage where you become blind and insane.
Yes, you can like your idols. Yes, you can spend time and money on your idols. Yes, you can even become attached to them. No, you shouldn’t fall in love with them. No, you shouldn’t believe that oppar or unnir has your best interests at heart. No, you shouldn’t believe that they have a personal connection with you.
Again, that’s all shit that a sane person would draw the line at. Any semblance of rationality would result in such a conclusion. There’s a line in the sand, and I don’t think it’s that hard not to cross it.
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Me thinks a lot of these delusional fan people are kids without productive lives offline. I’ve heard them say as much. Without productivity people kinda have to retreat to a fantasy world lest go insane. It serves lot of the craziness in kpop fandom although I could’ve sworn when I was in the Viskei fandom we weren’t THAT delusional.
Yep, reading blogs you will see that lot of people don’t even try to hide that they use kpop in order to escape from their shitty reality (but in an unhealthy and very obsessive way).
And most seem proud of it. LOL
Poor kids.
That’s why I usually leave most blogs in a matter of seconds.
Usually the glitter backgrounds or a thousand gifs of the same idol – sometimes fingering another one – plastered all over the place is enough to tell anyone on what kind of site one has landed. And then sometimes you get a bunch of melancholic (or perverted, but that’s always cool with me) quotes or some shit that’s supposed to sound poetic or depressing.
Writing shit on the internet for fun is one thing but actually being proud of your delusion is kinda sad. :o
They’ll feel like Tiffany from SNSD as soon as someone digs up the teenage crap they wrote 5 years from now.
And I really do hope that my current written diarrhea will be lost forever on the internet in a couple of years.
Emotionally detached or otherwise fucked up family lives might have something to do with the cray cray delusional fans who dedicate their lives to worshipping unnir and oppar. It’s actually very depressing.
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i think i’m delusional in the sense that i do sometimes believe in the image presented by idols of being good people and past reproach, when in reality “oppa” could be a real jerk, and we would never know unless a scandal happens. i think this is a lot of people though
The fact that you realize there could be a front stage/back stage dynamic means you’re not delusional.
It’s not wrong to believe that there are actual good celebrities out there, it’s wrong to keep thinking your favorite good celebrity is still flawless in the face of all evidence and logic.
I don’t understand how people can become so attached.
Wouldn’t you eventually get bored of following your idols every move? You would probably hear the same stories over again too.
TBH I don’t think I’m attached to any celebrity (western or eastern) in a delusional mode.
I can love their work, their talents, their looks, their humor and attitude/persona.
But not “them” because I just can’t have feelings for someone I don’t know.
This is why I don’t go crazy defending my bias or think they the love of my life and everybody else sucks.
I also don’t feel betrayed/disappointed when they are in the middle of some bad scandal and “stop being a fan” (which doesn’t mean I don’t critize them or make fun of it).
Simply because I’m their fan for some of the above reasons. Not because I have them as role models and think they are Gods or Angels.
I think it’s kinda understandable why those teens become so delusionaly obsessed. The level of involment with k-pop idols is extremely high. Fans watch their realities, varieties etc and start to think that they know their personalities, habits. It’s in worse with Korean fans – they attend concerts, music shows and fansign events (where they can even talk to them a bit), so it’s not that hard to start to believe that you have some kind of personal connection or shit like that.
When I was a tween I had no internet at all and when I was a teenager my internetz were so damn slow, so all my fangirling over, for example, Muse, who I liked so damn much as a teen, was only in listening music, that’s all. But who knows what could have been if I was born 10 years older
*10 years later, god, my English sucks so much
Of course it’s understandable, the idol industries in Korea and Japan basically BANK on people being cray cray.
Still, I was a tween/teen once and didn’t do all this psycho shit. I think it was probably because I was actively involved in the outside world though.
Never.
I do have my faves that I stan for but even then, I’m just a casual listener. I don’t have the time or the patience to have that much dedication to singers and idols, even during the height of my fandom (which was years ago tbh).
One of those days I might butcher Taemin and preserve his penis to build a shrine around it in my closet.
I will also do that to his beautiful face so I can wake up next to it every morning, inhaling the biting stench of his rotting flesh.
When I read the title of this article I was wondering for a minute who that artist “Psycho” was… I’m an idiot.
But this was quite entertaining. :o
“Personally, I was more preoccupied with chasing girls in real life” – go get them all! Were you successful with that?
Hey Min I found a site you might like…it’s full of boners.
http://pervingonkpop.tumblr.com/tagged/bulge
Have fun :P
Fucking awesome. Thank you, my pervy little friend!
But why is there so much fucking SuJu. I’m gonna puke on myself before I get to the good stuff.
LOL Yea that disturbed me as well but boners none the less. Considering I’m a 32 year old male and I was looking at boners for 10 minutes I’m questioning my marriage but w/e.
I think you should talk to your wife about your new fetish. I bet she would be fucking happy to hear about your boner obsession.
So you want to be like this guy or something?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Armin_Meiwes
Would bang.
The most amusing example of fucked up delusions is this “imagine” shit I see often on twitter and tumblr. “#Imagine U woke up then LUHAN staring at u. LH: U’re so pretty while ur sleeping. Can we stay here for more minutes.?”. All I can imagine when I see this crap is some ugly fat teen fangirl imagining it.
Same goes with fanfiction and fanarts (with two or more dudes fucking) – I can’t see it without the image of a horny fugly fangirl writing or drawing it
I still can’t understand fanfictions, all of my why.
fan fictions are supposed to be senseless to anyone except their fandoms
If I wake up and there’s some random Korea guy staring at me, all I imagine is screaming for hours.
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This.
Is that picture for real? I’m still new on the Kpop scene so those sorts of things still surprise me. I don’t understand how fans can stoop to that level. I admit that I have spazzed out when coming across my favorite idols picture online but that’s as far as it gets.
(Sorry about the first post I’m logged on my phone and its acting up.)
is that supposed to be tiffany tho?
Yes, that’s definetly Tiffany and Yuri is the one behind her, I believe.
Well if you are new be prepared to see a lot worse than that pic. Some crazed fans send their bloody tampons to idols.
You’re joking. That’s disgusting! And I thought meeting idols at airports was extreme. Wow.
Disgusting? We shouldn’t meet then. :>
But but… you are the reason I why opened an account here.
whoot – I like to read that.
We should meet then!
Don’t forget the letter to a 2PM member with the blood from a pad sprinkled with pubes
That story gave me nightmares for days =_=
I did the mistake of searching on Google for that…
Of course.
I’ve seen a lot worse than that.
Is it wrong that I *desperately* want to know what they’re praying to her for? And is it like a group thing they’ve all agreed on prior too, or did they just see a cardboard cut-out and were so moved by Tiffany’s leather booty shorts that they needed a moment of silence?
Has to be a staged picture, but you get the idea.
In my case, when I start liking a new group, I basically go all out. I watch videos of them, go on tumblr and stare at their photos, sign up for their official websites, etc. And then after a while, my love for them dies out. So I basically stan the fuck out of them until I get sick of them. My current obsession is EXO, and the only other group I still look out for is Block B.
I’m kinda like this too. I would jam to this group for a period of time, looks for some pics, what they up to and then drop it, the things is that i start to kinda get annoyed/not care for certain member groups and that basically makes me move on to the next, like in shinee I only like Onew and I couldn’t care less about the rest, I basically dislike every member of snsd except for taeyeon tho she’s kinda dumb, and sica. For some reason this is a mayor factor for me, and it’s not just in kpoop
Nothing wrong with being a fan.
You can be a hardcore fan and not believe your oppar/unnir is going to marry you.
I’ve had my over-defensive Sone phase but it’s done, just because I just don’t have that feeling about idols anymore.
These kind of comments pop up every so often on AKP, especially in the forums with topics about love and relationships.
“I’m ___ years old and I don’t have a b/gf, but that’s okay! I’ll be happy with just my k-pop.”
I feel pity and disgust at the same time. I want to see what these people are like in real life though, especially those that claim to be 21+.
Well put. I don’t see how people can just go to worship mode. I never found that to be classy.
i’ve seen the same or related stuff like that for 3 decades from rock artists to pop artists of various countries. nothing surprises me anymore. (god, i’m old lol)
“it’s all about keeping shit in perspective and being logical/rational.”
Off-topic but this is why I’ve come to like your blog so much. :) I really like your rational, down-to-earth, no-nonsense attitude. You just write what you honestly think (good or bad), and then never make a big deal out of it.
About the topic, I’ve never really been interested in celebrities or their lives. For a while I was a little obsessed with the band Dir en grey, but not in like a personal way with the members. I never obsessed over everything they’ve said in interviews, fantasized about “our life together,” wrote fanfics, etc. I mostly felt attached to their music.
Btw, have any of you watched “Answer me 1997″? It looks pretty interesting.
I went to a festival once where Dir en grey performed and that shit was crazy. I came a little late but the front guy was covered in blood. Why does he cut himself open? Just to shock the audience or does it turn him on?
I was crazy about Maximum the Hormone WITHOUT wanting to fuck them. That’s fucking rare for me. Waiting for a new album though…
Holy fucking shit, I’ve been trying to remember the name of a japanese band I always listened to ages and ages ago and I couldn’t remember a thing, turns out it was maximum the hormone, you just jogged my memory THANK YOU
Nice :) They are fucking awesome.
Saw them in concert last year and it was amazing. Really, really good life band.
Unfortunately they only stop by in Germany like every 4 years so I am lurking on their fanpage waiting for fucking updates.
of course it should be *live
weird shit I’m typing again
I’m replying super late so you may never read this D: but..
When did you see them live? That sounds like early/mid-2000s when Kyo (vocalist) was doing that. They were trying to express brutality and suffering on all levels. They used to use their appearance to express chaos and darkness, but now it’s moved more into their music while visually they’ve become more mellow.
I know Maximum the Hormone is supposed to be pretty good and has dedicated fans, but I still haven’t looked up their music yet..
Thanks, I try. :o
The only celebrity that I ventured slightly into crazy stan territory with was Utada. I went through a phase in like middle school where I would get defensive if anyone said anything bad about her music, voice, ect. However, with that being said, I never revolved my life around my fandom like crazy stans often do. I still love her music though. I don’t believe that there’s anything wrong with dragging someone online every so often when they’re spewing nonsense, but patrolling the internet looking for anyone that dares say anything bad about your “Oppa” is definitely too much.
Melo oppa! You are so wise and flawless! I want you to make beautiful babies with me so we can sell them to filthy people in Amsterdam for a lot of money – then we can fly to Korea and buy all the hot idols for a night.
Godtada <3
I still love her but I love making fun of her more lol
I’ve never been able to go full fangirl mode either. Even when I was I teenager, most of the bands/singers I listened to were either unattractive, really old (or dead) or just kind of uninteresting irl. The only thing I was interested in was their music. Plus there were no variety shows or things to fuel any kind of obsession.
And now with kpop, well I’m just too old for that shit. I still like to watch the pretty people dance around though :D
“… I was more preoccupied with chasing girls in real life…”
Depending on the context, that might actually be creepier.
Not literally, you fuck.
I know you didn’t literally “chase” them.
Most of the time they didn’t even know they were being followed, so a “chase” wasn’t necessary.
More of a “shadowing”, perhaps?
lol
fuck the delusional, look at that pic again of the SNSD cut out being worship. She is practically the color WHITE. how in the fuck is that a healthy skin complexion for a human being? I can understand if she was albino but she isn’t and that is an extremely unhealthy image towards.
bad enough these k-pop fanatics worship the poop that comes out of their bias butt hole but geez the beauty standards are just unreal.
That’s true everywhere though.
Celebrities are attractive and unrealistic for most average people.
zombie girl generation…..sones worship zombies
So have you ever like, stanned for a group? Not psychotically, but became a bit emotionally attached?
Of course.
All the time.
Pretty sure I JUST listed groups I liked/loved in the last edition of AAJ.
Yeah, but have you been emotionally attached to them in a way? As in you’d be upset if something like backlash happened to them?
I would defend them against subjective critiques, sure. Like looks or whatever.
Not like if they ran somebody over with a car and shit.
I was a hardcore fan of Tokio Hotel when I was 12/13. It got to a point where I prefered to be in the US forum talking with the other fans and watching shows and whatnot rather than talking with my real life friends ._. that lasted till I once said to one of my bestfriends in school ¨I’d rather be in the forum!¨…that’s the craziest I’ve been as a fan and yeah I’m pretty sure it was because I was a really emotional kid with low self-esteem and stuff like that. I still love Tokio Hotel and sometimes I go to the forum but I can be at peace and actually have a life (lol). Oh and I actually learned some German back then, I’ve completely forgotten now.
I became a fan of kpop just last year and life is busy so I don’t really get thaaaat much into it. I just follow the groups I like. The idol I like the most is SHINee’s Key and thankfully I’m still a sane fan.
I had a dream once that TOP and I were buying a couch in IKEA, woke up and was like “…Where the fuck did that come from?”
PS, I am a grown-ass woman.
I had a dream this week in which I had to find out who among group of my friends had raped, dismembered and buried a girl and in the end it turned out to be Jaehyo. Honestly, I have dreams with k-pop idols quite often, but the same thing goes with cartoon characters or other random people or things I see in my life, so I’m kinda used to it now
So when is your next psychiatric eval?
I’m SO glad I mostly grew out of my K-pop phase. And now my own friends this year started liking Big Bang and became delusional about it with all the facebook pages with “OPPA!” and “G-Dragon’s One of a Kind was a message to all the haters!!! He’s a great rapper!!!” Oh, how I wish I could save them from their delusion </3
Never been able to really get into the delusion of believing my ‘bias’ would marry me, or believe they’d ever talk to me. o.o Honestly, I just liked their music and picked some biases I thought were cute. I did have a friend go through the sort of delusional phase where she’d always wish her stan would come to her and marry her one day. I’m so glad she grew out of it when they stopped making good music.
Delusion?
So do you mean Taemin is not really living in my basement?
I’m replying super late so you may never read this D: but..
When did you see them live? That sounds like early/mid-2000s when Kyo (vocalist) was doing that. They were trying to express brutality and suffering on all levels. They used to use their appearance to express chaos and darkness, but now it’s moved more into their music while visually they’ve become more mellow.
I know Maximum the Hormone is supposed to be pretty good and has dedicated fans, but I still haven’t looked up their music yet..
Why did this show up here? D: this was a reply to No_Min ;__;
Nah, none of these celebrity mutha fuckas are paying my bills, or my damned tuition so why should they be worshiped at all. They came out a pussy, they doodoo brown, they need food & air just like me.
The most I ever do is dope up on their songs until I get sick of a particular few.
People need figure out their own lives before they get invested in these obvious facades. People fail to realize that these people are merely company merchandise for the dull masses to consume & dispose.
but idk that’s just my take on it.