안녕하세요 수란입니다. 우선, 본의 아니게 저로 인해 상처받아 마음 아팠던 분들이 계시다면 진심으로 사과 드립니다. 생각에 윤기난다는 문구는 ‘반지르르한 윤기가 흐르는’ 의 의미로 사용한 표현이고, 달달한 디저트 한입에 아이디어 가득한 생각이 떠올라 좋아진 기분에, 제 행복해진 마음을 전하기 위한 표현이었습니다. 단순히, 지인이 만들어 보내준 마카롱이 예쁘고 고마워서 홍보하고 싶어 올린 게시물일 뿐 입니다. 스페인을 의미한 S, 매거진 촬영 스튜디오에 있던 푸들 강아지 등, 상상하신 모든 것들은 전혀 다른, 지극히 개인적인 사연들이 담긴 게시물들입니다. 저는 평소 추상적인 표현을 자주 합니다. 그 표현이 일반적이지 않다는 엄청난 비난을 받는 것에 큰 충격과 상처를 받고 있습니다. 고통스러운 마음에 게시물들을 지워야 하나 고민도 해보았지만 이곳은 개인적인 저의 SNS 공간이고, 게시물들을 쓰면서 불순한 마음을 가진 것이 아니기에 그대로 두는 것이 저의 진심을 알리는 길이 아닐까 생각해봅니다. 저는, 그냥 음악하는 사람입니다 가볍게 시작하지도 쉽게 살아오지도 않았습니다. 끊임없이 다음 목적지 더 나은 음악을 향해 가고 있을 뿐 입니다.. 작년에 만난 SUGA 와도 음악 소통이 관계의 전부였고 그이상도 이하도 아니었습니다. 그럼에도 불구하고, 계속해서 오해를 하는 분들이 많은 것 같아 답답한 마음이 큽니다. 시간이 지나도 멈추지 않는 저에 대한 욕설과 분노를 어떤식으로 풀어야 할지 막막해 생각할 시간이 필요했습니다. 365일 24시간. 공인이기 때문에 긴장 속에 누군가를 항상 의식해야 하고 제 주위의 모든 사람 모든 상황을 고려하고 컨트롤 해가며 게시물을 올려야 한다고 생각하니.. 아무것도 할 수 없는 것은 아닌지, 음악까지도 검열해야 하고 항상 긴장하고 걱정해야 하는 것은 아닌지, 생각이 꼬리에 꼬리를 뭅니다. 다시 한 번, 진심으로 사과 드립니다. 더 많이 생각하고 고민하는 뮤지션이 되겠습니다.
Four days after Big Hit Entertainment released a statement denying the dating rumor between BTS‘s Suga and singer Suran, she released an apology and clarification on Instagram for the rumors.
On March 31, Suran took to Instagram to clarify the dating rumors, which were denied by BigHit Entertainment earlier this week. She wrote, “Hello, this is Suran. First, I’d like to offer my sincere apologies if there is anyone whom I unintentionally wounded.” Suran then explained the meaning behind her Instagram post from March 27. “I used the phrase to mean ‘shine’ as in a ‘gleaming luster,’” she wrote. “I was happy because after taking a bite of the sweet dessert, my thoughts were suddenly filled with new ideas, and I used the expression to convey my happy feelings. “It was a post that I uploaded simply because the macarons sent to me by an acquaintance were pretty, and since I was grateful, I wanted to promote them.” Suran also denied speculation that the dog in one of her Instagram posts belonged to Suga, as well as speculation that another post she made last year with the caption “S loves S suran loves spain!!!” had been referring to the BTS member. She wrote, “The ‘S’ that stood for ‘Spain,’ the poodle that happened to be at the photo studio of a magazine, [all of] these posts are completely different from what you’ve been imagining and are specific to my own personal experiences.” The singer went on, “I often use abstract expressions in my everyday life. The intense criticism that I received saying the expression I used isn’t standard has both shocked and wounded me greatly. “With a pained heart, I debated whether I should delete the post, but this is my personal social media account, and because I did not write my posts with bad intentions, I think that leaving them as they are is a way of showing my sincerity. “I’m just a person who makes music. I didn’t start [my career] lightly, and I haven’t lived an easy life. I’m simply traveling the path towards better music, continuously heading towards my next destination…” Suran then firmly denied that she was involved in any kind of romantic relationship with Suga, who produced her 2017 hit “Wine.” She wrote, “My relationship with Suga, whom I met last year, was entirely related to music; nothing more, nothing less. “Despite that fact, I think there will be many people who will continue to misunderstand [the nature of our relationship], which makes me feel very frustrated. “I was at a loss for what to do and needed time to think about how to ease the unending anger and insults directed at me. 365 days, 24 hours. “To think that, because I’m a public figure, I need to always stay on my guard, aware of others, and upload posts while taking every possible situation and everyone around me into consideration… “I wonder whether I’m unable to do anything at all, whether I will always need to stay alert and worried and even censor my music. My thoughts keep snowballing.” Finally, the singer concluded, “Once again, I sincerely apologize. I will become a musician who thinks and worries more [about my actions].”
The timing is a bit odd since the whole thing seemed to be blowing over and most people didn’t seem to be taking it too seriously, but I guess she was getting enough backlash from crazy fans where she felt the need to respond in some form.